Addiction cartoon -Dr Robert Lefever – Preventing Addiction
Drinking is not an option
I have had the most fucked day. Good outcomes overall but fucked.
People going off half cocked without the full story (why let the facts get in the way of a good story), people slandering people’s abilities without facts.
Leaving keys in the office thus having to walk back to the office to leave carpark (15 mind each way).
Thus missing my meeting to review Step 2 with my sponsor.
Finding car window this morning has been open during drenching storms so car smells.
No hunger so haven’t eaten all day.
Specialist wants to see me sooner rather than later.
What have I done it deserve this????
But. The good news is that I am able to deal with these things quite calmly and have a laugh.
And drinking is not an option or even a desire!
Thank god!
Isabella.
Xxxx
Happiness
I am in such a happy place at the moment. I have worked from home today and had a chance to really be creative with a number of writing projects I have on the go. My creativity is a such a high, that I really do not want to go to work – I could work all day, every day on my writing.
Added to that, I am working on the health of my body and the health of my spirituality.
I really feel like I am on the right path at the moment – still have not had a drink and it has been 15 days.
My cravings are almost non-existent, and when I do have them, I pray that they will go away and they do in some miraculous way. I just cannot explain it.
I have been focused on reaching out to other people as well – I have at least 4-5 people on speed- dial that I speak to at least once a day, so I have support and I provide support to others.
Big decisions may be coming up in the next 2 weeks – do I dare to dream???
The Loss Of Life
An amazing new concept for the day at least – strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, and the loss of my old life as a condition for finding a new one.
The ability to be who I want to be, not the person I was.
If I choose to work on myself and be clear on the steps I need to take.
Do I want this? Yes.
Can I do this? Yes. If I apply myself as rigorously to the path of health as I did to the path of destruction.
Isabella.
Xx
Awakening
Have woken with a headache and sore neck. Another day where I am struggling to get out of bed and go to work.
If I didn’t have so many meetings this week I would have a day off. Or if The Boy was not here I would. So many reasons not to have a day off.
So many reasons I need to collapse in a heap – even for a day.
Still thankfully sober – 9 days. It’s a miracle.
😊
Isabella.
Xx